Change Change Change(moved to Wordpress) {New Moon Solar Eclipse in Gemini}

Last (20th) Sunday was the New Moon Solar Eclipse in Gemini. I know, a long terminological sentence. :p Powerpacked too. Usually I anticipate wonderingly how it (universal events) will manifest in my life. This month however, I was mentally ahead of the time, with all the 10th house action going on (also where this event occurred for me Sunday). All of May & late April I prepared my seed, & it was ripe for planting (yes, I realize that's an oxymoron- I'm quite fond of it) by Sunday. And here it is!!  A new name, new blogsite, new offerings, & new look. I know I just changed my Blogger URL, but I'm not even going to apologize! I just hope you lovely ladies will join me at Genuine Essence. <3

Solar Eclipses are life changing- solar is life, eclipse is change. Unpredictable, pure change.  New Moon's are also change- new cycle, new movement- like pressing the 'refresh' button. I wrote to  someone that New Moon's require us to go inward to initiate the change- Moon is our inner emotional environment, therefore Lunar events always illuminate the core.

Gemini is all about communication & connections. Words...words....words...& anything that connects people in a mental way. So I thought it was perfect timing to launch a new name & site. :D Gemini is also doubly cool 'cause it's the Twins-therefore I now officially (10th house) offer photography & astrology!

This is a very belated update- I finally got a job, & have been working almost everyday. I'm not complaining, haha! I enjoy it- it's a hostess job at a restaurant. It's pretty simple- I still make mistakes but apparently that never ends...which is hard for me to swallow sometimes...but I haven't been working more than 2 weeks, so...

Anyway, I know this launch won't be immediate take off- everything is progress...or is it process...or both.  I'm still adjusting to having a job & keeping everything else up. I'll get the hang of it. I appreciate all support & encouragement I've been receiving. :)

Tangible Translations of Traveling{Full SuperMoon in Scorpio}

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I am Superfull emotionally, just like the Supermoon Full Moon we had last Saturday (May 5th). I would say, as I did in my Facebook status, "LIKE MY EYES ARE GONNA BE WHEN I SEE IT", except in past tense of course. Unfortunately however, it became cloudy before the Supermoon. I did get to see the moon rise however, & me mum woke me up in the middle of last night to see the moon high up in the sky. I don't recall it being bigger than usual, but then my eyes were only half open.  It was the color of this moon though. I think..

moving on...

 my view Saturday night while I sat under the overcast sky-the moon still shone through

Why am I superfull? Living in the moment & with gratitude is really transformational. 

I'm recreating my photography business, which is truly fulfilling & exciting.

Sun (self, powerhouse, life-center) conjunct (arm in arm) Jupiter (good fortune, expansion) in Taurus (focused feminine earth) in my 10th house (career, public position)    {I am in possession of benevolent wealth & expansion }

I'm being flooded (that's what it feels like) with souls searching for their connection to the Universe. It feeds my soul, & it's flowing without any force or resistance from me. How awesome & revealing is that? This is one of the few tangible (Taurus) instances within my life where the Universe is shedding enormous amounts of light & love towards something that I wasn't expecting. My passionate love for astrology in the first place is completely unexpected. Is this what it feels like when purpose (Sun) & preparation (10th) meet opportunity (Jupiter)? It tastes (Taurus) like luck (Jupiter).

 My mother has been SUCH a contributor to this, lovelovelove. That really became illuminated to me with the Full Moon in Scorpio in my 4th house (mother, women, emotional home). 

Writing like that makes me feel like I have a translator. Hee hee.Oh wait...that's literally what I'm doing.

AH MORE EXCITEMENT!!!

Mercury (communications, connections processing of information) in Aries (initiative,identity, innocent expression) traveling my 9th house (exploration, library of life, higher meaning): Exploratory expansion of higher consciousness through Oprah various media, mentors, & life coaches.

I've watched Oprah now & then with me mum, & remember seeing her on the television as a child. There was a time when I almost bought into the whole "Oprah sucks & is a phony" nonsense.  
Key: don't make assumptions without experiential evidence.
The other Saturday though, about two weeks ago, I decided to rise early even though I was tired. I descended to the basement to find me mum watching Oprah interview Deepak Chopra in India.

life changing 

 I feel like it encompassed everything that had been simmering in my subconscious. I'm always searching subconsciously for articulation (one of the perks of being born with Mercury Retrograde, & one of the reasons I adore astrology), & he is a sublime articulater (new word!) of higher consciousness. I dream of buying his books. 

taken during before or after one morning meditation

 I don't know what it is, but my transits (the current planetary movements in my chart (where the planets were at my birth) & my chart itself is translating to literally to me lately. It feel like divine insight. That's exactly what it is. B"H (praise Gd). It's probably all the meditation I've been having.

I want to leave you with a few Scorpio Full Moon observation, just 'cause it's great food for thought & it's never too late. 

Being a Scorpio myself this is one of my favorite Full Moon's this year. Full Moon's are about revelations, completion, wholeness, & illumination. Especially illumination. Scorpio's about the nitty gritty- death, sex, intimacy, & most of all~ TRANSFORMATION. Open your heart to what will be revealed- probe it, & Scorpiofy it. Transform, share, keep secret, or kill? They can all be awesome though painful. It's always worth it when your motivation is pure.

I appreciate every single moment you are present here, sharing my mini-revelations. Love & Light Constantly. 

blessings

Observations on Becoming {Phoenix Moment}

 So this is a very special post to me, because I recorded it on my iPod in what they call "real time". In the moment. So here it is, dictated by me to me. Open your heart & breathe. Join me....

Hello! I am so excited right now because I've just had a breakthrough. And I think this is one of , y'know, those life changing moments. Nights, actually. It always happens in the night for me it seems. Anyway, I'm so excited because I finally decided that I'm able and ready to let go of my pain in the past, especially  when it comes to relationships. I'm ready to choose what I want, choose what I need and stop telling myself the same story, letting others tell me that story, and feeding my desire to feel sorry for myself. To create that story of victim and y'know, unsatisfied longings.

 It's completely transformational. The freedom is terrifying.  I'm noticing I have trust issues when it comes to heightened positive feelings. Yes, it's a type of high, it's important to feel highs in life though. Anyway, so I'm feeling really excited, I'm feeling really free. I know in the back of my mind, it's going, "Well now you'll be more lonely..."-affirming those whispers that have fed me for so long. But now, I'm saying enough! Enough enough enough. 

I'm changing my story, I'm no longer listening to the whispers and y'know, I will continue to crave companionship. But I will no longer settle for putting myself into relationships & situations that cause me to feel sorry for myself, feel used, feel unappreciated.

I realize that the key to this state is gratitude. Being grateful grateful grateful for what I already have, what I possess, & what I will possess. I know I will.

It's that simple. It's that amazingly transformational. It's that groundbreakingly life changingly breakthroughingly simple. Gratitude.

Everything's a gift. I'm given so many gifts..so many gifts. I have to shwift my perspective, to actually seeing & embracing the gifts.And giving.

 I realize that I don't truly  give as much as I want to.  What's in it for me? What about me what about me what about me? In order to get what I truly want to receive- I want to receive authentic, true generosity-I must give that.

And I feel that familiar clenching pain because I'm afraid of the hurt of not being appreciated, of being taken for granted, taken advantage of. But I need to trust the power of authenticity and generosity. I have to trust myself & the universe. 

That the universe is supporting me. 

That I'm unconditionally loved & accepted. 

And then I can give freely of my time & my energy. And then I'll be able to enter relationships & situations where people make deposits into me. Into my emotional bank. So I don't end up being bankrupt because I'm giving  without receiving. and that doesn't mean that I don't give to myself, cause that's where it starts.

I'm so looking forward to my journey in mediation because it's going to be so powerful, so transformative.  I'm finally understanding my Moon (inner self) in the 8th house (transformation) in Pisces (transcendence).

Transform myself through Transcendence.

I'm just... I have tears in my eyes. Because I feel like I'm finally finding myself. Finally moving past this negative emotional state I've been in. I can still feel them boiling underneath the surface-but I know that I can change, that I can release, that I can choose. I can trust the giving & receiving. I can rust the universe & I can trust myself. I can trust the love that surrounds me. I can trust the people that surround me. I can trust them because Gd will always give me what I need.

this Lifeclass initiated this transformation for me

I know what I want to be now. I want to be free. Emotionally free. And there is the secret of my North Node (aim) in the 4th house (psychological foundation). Freedom from the negative energy. Freedom. Higher purpose. Higher power.

I can see that I can personify the Phoenix. I am the Phoenix.

I'm gonna start a gratitude journal, something Goddess Leonie already hinted to me, so I'm gonna check it out. See how that simplicity changes my life. Meditation will be my tool for putting me in the moment of life.

I wanted to share this with you all because it's not that...it is that I have the secrets & I have the answers. You have the secrets & you have the answers. Unlock them.

I'm completely excited. And I know this is real because my negative triggers haven't disappeared, they haven't just vanished. Y'know, I'm entering through them to my higher state of consciousness, my higher state of being, my higher state of transformation. Fully me.

So, Yes. I love myself.

Love Unawakened {integration session} & Sexual Assault Awareness

I'd desired to guest post on Love Unawakened for a long while. Their messages were always heartful & lightful  & so nearly congruent with my own thoughts on the topic of purity (keeping yourself for your intended soul mate). So I finally emailed Jennifer Rochester, a frequent writer on Love Unawakened, & asked if I could. She said yes & was open to sharing on my blog as well!

I decided, after some consideration, to share my sexual shame story for the first time (publicly). Last night after I emailed her with my post, I realized that it was Sexual Assault Awareness month. A powerful time to unite, support, & share our stories. You can find mine here.

So here we are. Jennifer has joined me in being vulnerable, & opened her heart with us. I encourage you to check out her blog. I would also like to note how beautiful it is that it doesn't matter where you come from, what's your religion, how you perceive things, as long as we listen & respect each other, & hopefully with light & love! We each struggle with similar things, & must find our own unique path through them.
May this speak to you....

Hi! My name is Jennifer Rochester. When Katherine asked me to do a blog post for her blog I wasn’t too sure what I was going to write about, but I decided to share my testimony with you and how I came to my convictions on dating and purity. For starters, I was raised in a Christian home, homeschooled, and as far as I’m concerned the most perfect home possible. I now realize how much I had to be thankful for. I was what I guess the world would call “Sheltered” With that said, I was a Christian… I accepted Christ at the age of 5. Although, for the most part my faith was what I now refer to as my parents faith. I read my Bible, memorized verses, prayed, etc just because I knew it was what I was supposed to do. Then I hit my teen years. Nothing really changed except I went on a few mission trips and it really opened my eyes to what the world was like and how not everyone had been raised like me. After this I began seeking God for myself and it has never been the same since! The next part may come as a shock to you that I will be this open and honest, but the truth is more people deal with this than we care to acknowledge. I had my innocence taken away from me. Yes, you read that right… I had every bit of innocence ripped from me. So what was I to do now? Through the tears I remember just seeking the face of God… I didn’t understand and I had no idea what sex, dating, or love was about. It all seemed so muddled in my mind. This may seem to have nothing to do with my testimony, but it has everything to do with it. I remember reading book after book, crying out to God, digging into His word, writing love letters to my future husband, crying more, talking to people that I trusted because it all didn’t make sense. I knew this wasn’t God’s idea of love and sexuality. As I continued searching for answers I began to realize that God wanted to call me to a higher standard. Some of these standards have not been easy, but they are possible. Just so you know… I will not kiss a guy until my wedding day. There are obviously other things I will not do as well, but this is the main one that God really pointed out to me. Now do I think kissing is wrong? No. I do not think it is sin, although I do believe that it leads to other things. That is why I choose to abstain until my wedding day. You may ask whether I believe in dating or not. I do believe dating is perfectly fine. I am in a relationship right now. With that said though, dating is not a game to me. Love isn’t something that can happen over and over. I believe God has the one specific person for you and although they may not be the only person you ever date they should not be one of many. The purpose of dating in my life is to find my future husband. That means I do not date guys who are not Christians, who do not have the same goals in life as me, or even more so a guy that I wouldn’t want to have a son exactly like. Although I do date I take it very seriously. Has this always been easy? No…. trust me… I will be brutally honest with you. There are many times that I want to kiss my boyfriend and many times when I was single and had opportunities to date guys, but I knew they were not the right ones it was hard. I sometimes ask God why He led me to these convictions, but I know that He has a plan and a reason! If you are a guy or girl reading this I challenge you….DO NOT settle! Yes, it is hard and yes it is a battle, but I have full confidence that when you find that right guy or girl it will be worth it! God promises to bless the faithful. Are you being faithful? I read something the other day and this guy was noting how God has already assigned you the right person so when you date someone before them and give them parts of you that belong to your future spouse you are in a sense cheating on your future spouse. Ouch. Are you cheating on your future spouse? It is worth a thought… Have you been hurt, molested, raped, or violated in anyway? I understand the confusion and pain. It is real. My prayer for you is that you seek the face of God and see what HIS plan is for you. That is the only way you can get true peace. If you have any questions or would like to talk to me more about this feel free to email me jennifer.rochester{at}charter.net or read some more on my blog at Love Unawakened.
In Christ,
Jennifer

I encourage you to share your story of purity, to read the post I shared with Jennifer, & to share your support! :) I hope you've enjoyed this Integration Session- there's more to come!

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